Here’s how it all started, me depressed that I have become SO overweight that I was very angry.  What finally got me motivated to start exercising and stick to this journey was how angry I got.

Here’s What I Said July 18th, 2010

Yesterday I woke up and something seriously flipped in my brain.  I’m just flat out ticked right off. I was (and still am) angry  about this:

• that I have to feel the way I do
• I’m physically limited as to what I can do
• I get sore way too easy
• It’s hard for me to do 20 minutes on a machine at the gym
• I can’t swim laps like I used to
• I don’t feel like the woman, mother, wife that I want to be
• I’m in the plus X sizes
• I can’t cry, I get so angry that I can’t just sit down and let it all out
• that I have to lose weight
• like my life has slipped away
• something has been stolen from me
• that I sit at the computer day in and day out
• that I have to do this blog, seriously — super not happy about this
• I look fat in white
• I had to wear a black dress to my daughter’s graduation in the summer!
• that I waited this long to actually do something about it

I’m not happy, I’m not excited about this, I’m just flat out ticked right off!

Here is How I Described Myself:

I’m 35 years old.
I’m a Mom of 3.
I’m a Wife.
I’m a Business Owner since 1996.
I have a REALLY bad attitude towards losing weight.
I’m not impressed with this, can ya tell?
I’m tired of being FAT
I don’t want to work out YUCK
I don’t like having to deal with this.
To sum it all up…
I’m like a teenager with a BAD attitude.

But I know in my heart that I need to do this… It certainly won’t be perfect, I’m definitely going to resist this whole process  — I know this has to be done.

Here’s my Before Photo

I was pretty  upset that day, it was hard to enjoy Disneyland because I felt like I could hardly get around at all.