This song has been ringing in my ears and it reflects tough times for many of us. Especially us women… 1 in 4 girls are abused by the time they are 18.

1 in 4 Girls Are Abused By the Time They Are 18

This could have something to do with my weight issue, ya think?

It all stems from somewhere doesn’t it? I was raped at 15, harsh to put out there but the truth and I can tell you that having people around me like Tishia @ No More Plus Size who shares her own struggles makes me realize that it’s in these times where we find out strength. I’m SO proud of Tishia for bringing this into the light, you can’t fight something you can’t see right?!

This post was triggered for me a long time ago when I first took over this site. Angela Wills @ Getting Fit For Always posted something on her blog (I’m hoping she’ll remember what it was that triggered me)… Anyhow, I was having a conversation via email with Angela.  I can’t remember exactly how the conversation went but we talked about what I heard on Dr. Phil years ago. That if you take a look at the moment in your life where there was trauma that’s usually the point where you started to gain weight.

It makes sense to me.

This song to me represents how I felt in that time of trauma, I just needed someone to tell me that I didn’t need to feel perfect.

I don’t want to depress you today, that’s not my intention. I just know that the battle with obesity that I face stems from a very tender place when I was 15 years old. Also, if you’re a sensitive person please don’t watch this video, it gets pretty upsetting…

It also makes sense to me that all I was doing was looking for love after the rape, I wanted someone to save me. Little did I know that I could have put my trust in God and He would have saved me and pulled me out of my despair.  Instead I looked toward boys for love and ended up a single, pregnant, teen mom at age 16.

Now I LOVE my daughter, she’s the best gift I ever could have received.  But I recognize that the rape took so much away from me and I’ve often just pushed it away, I took the stance all these years that I’m stronger than that.  But my body has been screaming for help for so long, especially after my daughter’s battle with cancer.

I just wanted to point out the thoughts that have been inside my head about this whole issue I’m facing. It’s time for me to recognize my own battle and get real with it because NO weight loss program will fix what’s been done.

In the next video I’ve been listening a lot to is a Christian band called “Reliant K” I love all of their songs, they are wonderful. Here’s a line from this video….

If the burden seems too much to bare, remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there.

I’m here for you at this site, it’s my goal to not only support you in the success but to recognize the pain we have when fighting this battle.