My husband and I went with our youngest to the beach the other day. It all started out great, I was going to get some more exercise and take some great pictures with my daughter. I also wanted to get some single shots of myself not only for the blog here but it’s easier for me to see what I actually look like in the moment. It’s funny how a picture  really shows you. It started out by asking my husband to take a nice picture of me here at the beach, I love the beach and we often visit.

This picture was when I was motivated about our walk.

Then I literally looked at that picture above and started feeling sad and hubby took this shot.

I guess he decided to do a close up this time and you can see I truly am sad at this point.

I was so very sad that after this shot tears just started to roll down my cheeks.  I’m feeling emotion because of what  look like on the outside is really not how I feel on the inside. Also, I recognize that this isn’t me, it’s just a reflection of my life of the last few years.

I’m an emotional eater and I’m refusing to allow myself to eat emotionally any longer so I’m learning how to recognize it and deal with it.

How do you deal with such sadness of who you are now VS. who you want to be?